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hi~...i hvnt update my blog since the end of august..and its not that i didnt have anything to share, i do, but maybe my mood didnt seem right for me to led out anyting, i guess..i was sooooo tired, didnt have enuf rest, dont sleep well, keep having migrain, and i'm quite not myself for the past few weeks. I found myself to be lost in thought really often, and i start to think bout everything...studies, future, life, and things doesnt seems right, i cant rily led myself to be "out there". No matter wut i do, where i am, my mind kept flewing sumwhere else, i was just not 'there'. I hate to be like this, as life wuz moving on, no matter we like it or not, we just had to move along, bcoz its our life, we got to decide, ant we have and we need to choose our path, but, when theres come a moment when things became so unclear and unsure, and you keep hesitate on deciding and choosing your path, everything doesnt seems right, and you? you'll keep thinking; "what to choose?", "where do i go?", "what if, what if i make a mistake, and things will never be better?", "what'll happen if it turns out to be the wrong choice?", "will it end up making me happy?", then everything will come to this sort of question.."what am i doing?", "thing'll be better, wont they?", " i'll find my answers soon, wont i?"..you know, as this things happen, you'll just realize that you're at 'pause', but unfortunately, your life still moving on, choosing its own path, and you'll might feel lost, as you're trying to cope up with your own life, you'll be more tired, very very tired, n you're lost in your own life. and maybe, u'll start to hate urself for it. How could this be?, What should you do?, How do you unpause yourself? What will you do?....and the worse part is....its still remain questions...still remain unanswered...or maybe it dont rily need to be answered, is it?...but 1 thing, i believe that things'll be better, entho it's juz for a moment, eventho this one thing that'll make u happy will be followed by another 10 things that'll make u feel terible, but thats okay, that 1 happy moment is still happening, and it's yours, and it still make you happy, even for a moment. Believe in fate, and always have faith. It doesnt matter whether ppl believe or even know bout it or not, wut matter is wut u truly feels bout wut happen, all the thing that surrounds u, thing dat'll make u happy, n make u believe that u are a better person now. And another thing i've learn, you shud b urself, ppl dont know u, u do, do all the things that u want to, speaks if u must, make a wishlist or wutever u called it, makes your life worth, if you love sumone, just love them; if you dont, just dont..express yourself, hope n dreams wont hurt, but if u fail to achieve it, thats okay, you'll still gain sumting in return, n you're dont rily failed, but u just doesnt achieve it yet~...

N.

There's a song i wud like to share wif u ppl, it's called Prettiest Friend by Jason Mraz. I personally think that it is a beautiful song. Sad, but beautiful. hehe. Try to listens to tiz song. U'll love it, hopefully. Make me think, reminisce bout someting. So, hear it out, i got d lyrics here. have fun. take care~...

N.


this is what i look like today
and i'm trying not to pull out my hair
i'm trying not to show it cause i'm far too shy to grow it back there
that's probably why i like wearing hats
there's no denying i'm deferring the facts
avoiding confrontation
lacks tact in a situation
behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming
and oh it goes to show
there's so much to know

i wrote this for my prettiest friend
but while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on but the way that it unfolds is yet to be told

i know that i should be brave
even pretty can be seen by the blind
i know that i cannot wait
until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds


and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overjoyed
and it's golden, it goes to show then
the ending of this song should be left alone
and so on cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told

Because of you, mini camera~...

Waaa…at 1.23pm today, do you know what I’m doin? At my desk, wif laptop, my physics work, n me drinking, my gold Nescafe, nk ilangkn ngantok..puase da batal daa~..ishk3..do you know why….? Ha..? no no no..haha..its not what u’re thinking~..huhu..

Mcm ni cite de..Today, at 8 in the morning, I went to Gleneagles hospital to do some med check up. Willingly? Naah..i was forced, umi forced me, sbb lately I keep having tiz headache, sort of migraine, everyday, da la kne mara sbb I left my medical card at my house at shah alam. Yela, if ade kad tux yah bayar, buang duit je melabur bnyk2 nih, xbest..hehe..Ishk3..pagi2 da kene mara..wuuuu~..haha..tp xpe..hidup kne sentiase hepi, so utk hepi kite knela bwat2 xpeduli a.k.a buwat bodo jek..hehe..So, tanpa mmbawa medical card itu, I went to Gleneagles, and asked them “aa, akak, tumpang tanye boley x? I want to see the doctor but I didn’t bring my pmcare medical card, u can call pmcare and verify with them right akak? This is my ic *bg de ic*” then, tut tut tut~..de call pmcare..eii panjang pulak nak cite sume, so conclusionnye, i dapat jgk jmpe doctor tanpa kad itu..hehehe..tp da jumpe doctor tu, die check check check, de suro pegi refer to specialist pulak..adedeh, nasib baik umi ade, kalau umi xikot tadi, mesti I da balik da, malas nak pegi jumpe, confirm punye~..hehe..masuk clinic specialist kt Gleneagles tu kene tunggu satu jam pulak, sebab ramai, ni la nasib badan bile pegi xbuwat appointment dulu..ishk3..umi malas nak tunggu, die pon chow, saye pon ape lagi, mengambil kesempatan utk tido la kat situ..hehe..ngantok la..sedap pulak tido kt situ, serius nii~..hehe..bile jumpe doctor tu, de tanye banyak, adeke patut de tanye skolah form brape? Aish..no la doctor, I’m at uitm..;


“oo..what course r u taking?”

“hurm~..bac. in forensic analysis”

“waa~..forensic aa? Wow, so ure dealing with dead bodies..?”

“aaa..not rily, I’m juz in a first year, doin lab analysis”

“ooo..so ure doin analysis..? d fingerprints n all that stuff? very good..”

“erk..kinda..yeah..hehe..”


Conversation continues~….


Then, he said that he nid to enter a camera thru my nose n mouth to observe my condition. Oh, mann~..this is so not cool, I mean, it is cool, but..i’m fasting, so, it’s not so cool anymore la kn..then, doctor tu tunjuk kt tv tu hows my internal looks like, haha..suke2..sangat menarik~..hehe..so, sbb tu la my pause da batal..hehe, all clear murid2..? good~..hehe..skrg ni pukol 3.13ptg..nti saye sambong lagi ye..hee.. (:

N.

the starting.

Hello. Hihi. This is my first time blogging. I’ve been meaning to blog for years, but…I never have an idea on what to write. How about now..?!! Jeng Jeng Jeng…!!! Haha. Nope. Still absolutely zero. ZERO. Heee~..
Abistu..nk buat cemane..? Nanti kalau x buat kempunan. Kalau nk tunggu ade idea? Hurmm…alamatnye smpai da ade cicit pon belom tentu ade idea lg. kn? Kn? Huhu. Aaa..lupe pulak.. First of all, my name is Nadia, and…you can call me nadia. Haha..macam takde beze pon. Lantakla, suke je nak bagitau banyak-banyak kali. Huhu. Since I was a kid..up until now, I’ve got lots of nickname. Ade yang I ingat n ade jugak yang da tak ingat da..hehe. So, yg I ingat..theres nadia, nad, ckarl, diya, nanad, cik nadia, emm..yang tak boley blah nye adelah from my frens yg sengal2 nih. Adeke patut de bagi name janad, jojet, nanoned, ape lagi ek? Ntahla..da xingat da. Huhu. My bestfriend, name die amalina, tapi people called her as amal. Orangnye sangat2 la sengal, pelik, gile, xsenonoh, biol, conclusionnye..memang exotic btol la minah sorang nih, tp die baik. Huhu. Haa..! punye la xde keje minah nih..die pegi buwat name panggilan baru utk i. Nak tau ape? JYFABB …haa, korang pon mesti takde idea ape kejadahnye mende ni kn? Haha..klo korang nak tau every single letters in it adelah the initial letter for some guys’ name. so, kat situ, J, Y, F, A, B, B…ade 6 orang..adeh..ape kisah disebaliknye…? Jeng Jeng Jeng…!! Haha..takmo la bitau..nanti2 kalo korg nak tau, korang tanye je eh..hehe..emm..ape lagi ek? Banyak la lagi..nanti la slow-slow, kalau rajen ade la cite baru..huhu..aaa..pasal arini…? Emm..takde pape yang menarik sgtla. Tp pagi tadi I ponteng klas..hehe..bukan ape~…memang takleh nak bukak mate..dah bangon, dah mandi, tapi…mate nih mamang takmo bukak, suku je yg terluas die dapat bukak..da macam Garfield da, hehe..tu la sebab tak dapat pagi kelas tu…ceeewahh~..alasan lebey..org ckp, nak seribu daya, xnak seribu dalih..so mknenye, xnak la tu kot..hahaha…trok betol perangai..ishk3..hehe..takpe, bukan slalu, skali skale jek..hehe..tapi~…tapi~…tapi~….kelas kimia petang tadi I pegi~…!!! Haa…!! Apekah maknenye tu….?!!! Maknenye saye rajen..?!! uish..saye mmg rajen..time kasih..tapi, sebenarnye, dah klas tu 50minit jek. Hohoho..pegi kejap, tapi dapat sain attndnce..hehe..kan brilliant plan tu..haa? kn? Kn? I’m am in fact brilliant..haha..dan sebagai hasilnye, I got an awesome news, second chemistry test, next Friday..haha..haih..keje belambak2..xpe2..Aja Aja…!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha… (^_^)

N.