hi~...i hvnt update my blog since the end of august..and its not that i didnt have anything to share, i do, but maybe my mood didnt seem right for me to led out anyting, i guess..i was sooooo tired, didnt have enuf rest, dont sleep well, keep having migrain, and i'm quite not myself for the past few weeks. I found myself to be lost in thought really often, and i start to think bout everything...studies, future, life, and things doesnt seems right, i cant rily led myself to be "out there". No matter wut i do, where i am, my mind kept flewing sumwhere else, i was just not 'there'. I hate to be like this, as life wuz moving on, no matter we like it or not, we just had to move along, bcoz its our life, we got to decide, ant we have and we need to choose our path, but, when theres come a moment when things became so unclear and unsure, and you keep hesitate on deciding and choosing your path, everything doesnt seems right, and you? you'll keep thinking; "what to choose?", "where do i go?", "what if, what if i make a mistake, and things will never be better?", "what'll happen if it turns out to be the wrong choice?", "will it end up making me happy?", then everything will come to this sort of question.."what am i doing?", "thing'll be better, wont they?", " i'll find my answers soon, wont i?"..you know, as this things happen, you'll just realize that you're at 'pause', but unfortunately, your life still moving on, choosing its own path, and you'll might feel lost, as you're trying to cope up with your own life, you'll be more tired, very very tired, n you're lost in your own life. and maybe, u'll start to hate urself for it. How could this be?, What should you do?, How do you unpause yourself? What will you do?....and the worse part is....its still remain questions...still remain unanswered...or maybe it dont rily need to be answered, is it?...but 1 thing, i believe that things'll be better, entho it's juz for a moment, eventho this one thing that'll make u happy will be followed by another 10 things that'll make u feel terible, but thats okay, that 1 happy moment is still happening, and it's yours, and it still make you happy, even for a moment. Believe in fate, and always have faith. It doesnt matter whether ppl believe or even know bout it or not, wut matter is wut u truly feels bout wut happen, all the thing that surrounds u, thing dat'll make u happy, n make u believe that u are a better person now. And another thing i've learn, you shud b urself, ppl dont know u, u do, do all the things that u want to, speaks if u must, make a wishlist or wutever u called it, makes your life worth, if you love sumone, just love them; if you dont, just dont..express yourself, hope n dreams wont hurt, but if u fail to achieve it, thats okay, you'll still gain sumting in return, n you're dont rily failed, but u just doesnt achieve it yet~...
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