i watched a muvee, and i reminds me of how bad a decision one can make in love. i have. whenever i think i found sum1, i started to think, what if its not love, what if i think i like him because, he's always there, what if i actually love him and he is actually not, and it scared the hell out of me. What if what i feel makes him hurt me, what if he hurt me? What if he left me? What if he's gone or died? It would have been the end of me. So I cut it short, before he ever could. i ran away, fighting my own will as hard as i could, and you know what? It was the biggest mistake I ever made. i still misses him, i want to talk to him, but i cant. the things i did push him away from me, over and over again, unintentionally. So, for you ppl out there, you've got to risk love! I didn't and look at me. It doesn't mean that you're never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love. And from someone who's felt a lot of both trust me, pain beats regret each and everyday.  Don't run away. Just don't. When you feel like you've found someone special, someone that is close to your heart, take a shot. Who knows? things might be a whole lot better, biala malu pon, coz the feeling of ashamed or embarrassment or even rejected will fade away eventually, but not the regret. Dear friend, take care~...

N.